Monday, March 20, 2006

The Loss of our Baby

Some of you may already know, but on March 8th 2006, we lost our precious unborn baby to miscarriage. It is one of the saddest things I have ever experienced in my life, and I still have good days and bad days. You go from being extremely excited, to being extremely sad. Although we never saw our baby, to us he/she was very real, and we will never forget them. I know God is with us and will guide us through this dark period.


I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this
God I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"

Friday, March 10, 2006

It's been awhile for good reason...

Well, I haven't posted in awhile, mainly because I haven't known what to say. I am going through one of the darkest periods of my life right now, and yet still trying to keep a positive outlook on life. There is still hope, and that is what I am clinging to right now.

I'm not ready to talk about it openly, but believe me, soon I will want to write it all down and get it out. Luckily, my work has been so good and understanding. I just couldn't face the world for a couple of days. My family and friends have been great, and are basically the only reason I am still looking forward with hope.

I was hoping to have the answers back by this weekend, but now it looks like I might not know until Monday. I am going to try and speed up the process though, as I really need to get back to work on Monday, and I would like the weekend to deal with the news whether it be good or bad.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. It is a very tough time for me, and I do believe in miracles, so I do believe every prayer makes a difference. I just hope God will show favor on me, but if not, I know there is a reason.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

If you live in Ohio, please voice your opinion

Awhile back I blogged about how certain Ohio school systems are going to Online Physical Education. Basically, students are able to complete homework for Physical Education online. The idea to me is compeltely ridicoulous since we all know kids who need exercise are not going to be held accountable to complete their daily homework. Heck, I am not even sure I would have been motivated enough in high school to be doing exercise outside of school and I was even an athlete! There is a bill in congress right now that would require standards be placed around Physical Education in Ohio that would require schools to adhere to a set curriculum. According to the P.E. conference my husband recently attended, this would cut down on schools that would be able to have online courses. Here are some facts that suggest this bill (State Bill 44) would be a good idea:

Ohio is the 13th fattest state in the country with 33.7% of Ohioans being overweight and 24.4% of our population being obese. These rates have doubled since 1985. Ohio's children are disproportionately affected with 30.3% of Ohio's children ages 6-11 overweight and another 15.5% of the youth categorized as obese. The more a child weighs, the increased likelihood of adult diseases, such as Type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease, asthma, and joint injuries presenting in pediatric patients.

Only a handful of states across the nation including Ohio do not currently have state physical education (PE) standards. Ohio's Department of Education also does not have a PE Coordinator position. Senate Bill 44 would remedy both of those issues. As such, we have been strong advocates of SB 44; however, the bill has been languishing for months in the Senate Education Committee.

Please go to this website a submit your support for this important bill. You will be asked to register quickly with your address only so they can make sure your email is sent to the appropriate representatives.

Contact your state representatives about State Bill 44

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Call Me Trendy

If you know anything about our dogs, you know that one of them can be classified as part werewolf. Flashback to two years ago, shortly after we were married. We were in need of a cell phone plan where we could share minutes and happened to sign up for Verizon and got two free phones. First week we have them, Archie chews up Jeff's brand new phone. It was pretty bad too. The outside had teeth marks on it, and the LCD screen was cracked, and the antenna was ripped out. Needless to say, although it looked like a disaster, it was actually usable (thank goodness it wasn't my phone!). Of course, we didn't buy the insurance for the phone, so for two years, Jeff has been using this beat up phone. Poor guy.

Well, two years have come and gone, and low and behold...our contract is up, YEAH! When your contract is up, they offer you deals for staying with the service like buy one get one free deals. So we went on Monday night and got the latest and greatest Verizon phone with V-CAST. This is the phone with all those annoying commercials where they start playing music from there phone, but either way, the phone is pretty cool, and a little high tech to say the least for me. I am still trying to figure the darn thing out. The cool features of it are that it is a camera and video phone, and of course the famous MP3 player feature...woo hoo. It came with the software to allow you to sync your CDs to your phone, the SD memory card, and the headphones for MP3 listening. It is pretty cool. For all you techy people, it is also enabled with bluetooth technology so you can talk with a wireless headset...ooh. I feel so trendy and hip...I make my teenage sister jealous, finally.

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

Not a fan of the current IOC

Well, as most of you have heard, the Olympic Commitee has confirmed that fastpitch softball and baseball will not be part of the 2012 London Olympic games. This to me is very sad.

The reason behind the axe is because the IOC believes that there is just no competition in the sport with the U.S, and that it is not picking up in other countries. I beg to differ. For instance, a lot of the MLB players are from different countries, and it is well known that countries like Cuba are heavy competitors in the baseball community. In softball, the U.S. women's team lost a major international game to China just this past year. You can't tell me that softball in other countries will never be able to compete.

This is very sad for me as a coach of a 12 and under girls fastpitch team. These girls love the game and I have heard many of them say it is their dream to play for Olympic Gold someday like Jenny Finch or Lisa Fernandez. I think the decision did not really analyze the sport as a whole, but just played on the fact that a lot of countries are not very fond of U.S. politics. This also is the reason why our only U.S. IOC member was also recently voted off, and we no longer have any U.S. representation.

In the end, this decision hurts women's softball more than baseball, although both are equally dissappointing. Guys at least have the major leagues to look forward to and strive for, but this is a major blow to girl's athletics.

I just hope that maybe something will change before 2012 as it is very sad indeed. That is my rant for the day.

Friday, February 10, 2006

Can we say anemic?

So, I got my test results back regarding my thyroid and such and I am happy to report there is nothing wrong with my thyroid....YEAH! However, it did come back to say that I am battling with my dreaded anemia again, which was somewhat expected. However, when I went to the pharmacist to pick up my new iron supplement, I was shocked to see how much iron they wanted me to take! My goodness! Mind you, I have to take one of these pills twice a day, and one alone has 65mg of Iron which is equivalent to 361% of your daily iron. How freaking anemic am I?! The doctor just said a little.

So, I called the doc's office back to see what my counts actually were, and it sounds like my hemoglobin (I learned that is what transports the iron) is very good. However, my actual iron count is 32 (good range is 50-170) and my iron saturation is 6 (good range is 15-50). SO definitely a little anemic. So, I am hoping with all the iron I was missing out on I will now have a little more energy after taking these supplements.

On another note, did anyone catch the O.C. last night? There was a very obvious plug for Victoria's Secret. I thought it was neat being I am an employee of VS. Not sure how much longer I can keep up the two job thing though, but the discount is just so nice...but how many more bras do I actually need. The answer is of course a lot more since now I am obsessed!

Oh, and on a side note since a very 'mature' co-worker just walked up and looked over my shoulder (he really isn't that old, but I like to tease him), check out his blog at Cool, Calm and Collected. It can be pretty interesting...if you are in to old time stuff and such:-)

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Why watch Animal Planet?

I think I've seen this one before on Animal Planet...

The scene starts with a deep voice over announcer talking about the preying habits of wild animals, and the skill of the natural hunter. Then, enter stage left, my two dogs. I'll let the pictures explain for themselves. Poor Simba never had a chance. Nothing left but to pick up the pieces:-)

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